Can I ever

Can I ever control myself or hide my feelings deep within? Have you ever held someone close to realize they aren't even there or wanted someone so bad that everytime you heard their name you'd cringe? Well, that's how I feel for you each and everyday. I've created an illusion of soemthing that will never be. Someday you'll find someone but for now I'd like to consider you and me. A female's mind is fragile and mine is in my heart. somehow you have captured both and it's been weird from the start. But for now I say go your way for you'll never like me.