My 1st Poem Eva

My heart seems to be invaded
With rejected hopes and broken dreams.
Lost memories stay hid between all the
rejection and depression of my child hood screams.
pushed in to being pressured.
Im worthless, the corner filled with coldness.
Loosing all strength I start to disappear.
thoughts of suicide start to reappear.
Is this from grief or anger.
Always feeling my lifes in danger.
Living in my nightmares.
never seem to wake up.
My life just starts to break up.
I start to realize the end is near.
My lifes no longer filled with fear.
Could the end really be this clear?
Yeah I did stop breathing.
I felt my heart stop beating.
But could it be this clear,
To know that your no longer here.