Never letting love in again
Feeling like a imbecile girl
Loving everyone but herself
Feeling in her mind no one loves her
They don't try to punish her
But with her plethoric demerits
They need to get through to her
That what she does is corrupting her very being
But she knows already
Then why, why does she let it take her body
The only thing she can control is no longer under her control
And now what can she hold on to
Only some care and love her and she may slowly lose them
Wanting, needing, caring more then she should about the people caring most about her
Leaning a little to much over the ledge
Hoping she'll fall to her inevitable death sooner than she should
Hoping that the nonexistent torture will end now and forever
As she puts together all all the dreams and watches them fall to pieces
As soon as they are done
And she counts the endless scars she has made
She realizes shes drawing a map of destruction for her life ahead
