I've tried holding on
I've tried to ignore the pain I feel inside
I've wanted to die at night and cry all day
I've wanted to live but I wanted to die
You've tried to dry my tears that I cry at night
But every morning I wake up to a tear stained pillow
Showing my nightmares that I have every night
And telling you that I'm not happy
But you never see, because you only care for yourself
You never cared for my feelings
You only locked me inside a little box so I could never be released.
Only when you wanted me to do something for you.
But it's not going to happen
I've had enough of the pain
You don't know how I feel, because you don't give a damn
You see a happy 16 year old, but you don't see the real me
I'm dead to your eyes
Because all you see is yourself
Trying to make me happy
When all your doing is hurting me
Making me hate myself
And sadly making me wanting to kill myself.
But you don't see the true me and the feelings you're putting me through
Mom, I hope you see this
Maybe one day you'll realize what happened to your happy little girl
Maybe you'll see that she was happy until you kept her locked up
Maybe you'll realize that if something happened to me that it was all your fault
That you killed your own daughter who was dead in your eyes
~I know it probably sucks, but it just came from the top of head. It's how I feel and how my mom is treating me. She wont let me do anything, not even see my friends. Is it so bad to want to love your life but you realize that you cant? Well if you comment I'll be sure to comment back~
