I Don't Wanna Be

I don't wanna be a failure
Especially in your eyes
Why didn't I wake up and see
That you are just a bunch of lies?

I don't wanna be a liar
For that's just the way you are
But you rub it in my face
And say I'm the one who's bizarre

I don't want to be insane
But you laugh at me instead
You say that I'll always be crazy
And that I should be dead

I don't wanna be dead
But you convince me that I should
I'm so lost and tattered
As you've said that I would

I don't wanna be imperfect
But I don't think you care
You always try to better me
And prove that life's not fair

I don't wanna be a disgrace
Why do you leave me here?
I've only always loved you
Being alone is my fear

I don't wanna be scared
But I'm afraid there's no hope
Without you here with me
There's simply no way to cope

Although you hurt me daily
Although you wish that I would die
I will always love you
I don't wanna cry...

{Written for a contest...}