Questions To Myself

Why is it I feel so alone?
Even when people surround me
Why is it I feel so lost?
Even though I can clearly see

Will things always be this way?
Me feeling so numb inside
Will my smile ever be real?
Or sadness will it always hide

Can I ever look at myself?
Without seeing only imperfection
Can I ever be myself?
Without being scared of people's reaction

What will become of my future?
Is depression all that's in store
What will become of my life?
Is there really nothing more

Why can't I go one day without crying?
For once will my eyes not tear
Why can't things make me feel happy?
Must it always disappear

Will I ever be able to erase?
The memories that plague my mind
Will my thoughts ever stop racing?
Or is peace something I'll never find

Can I ever look at someone?
Without comparing them to myself
Can I ever talk with someone?
Without hiding my true self

What will happen after today?
Will things just stay the same
What will happen to my mind one day?
Will I ever be able to feel sane..