I feel lost

My mind is in a box is hard to close and easy to lock
My mind is full of unwanted things a mind like mine no one else Brings
I feel sad and lost and hoping and praying for comfort
I grape a knife and hold it to my wrist oh how stupid must i have been
I'm laying there with blood on the floor a knock and the door but I'm to weak to go
I cry as I'm slicing the last bit of me the last bit ill see ever again in my life
A whole new world has entered my head a beam of light oh gosh i am scared
I cant move I'm numb I'm broken in two oh no what i can i do
Have i ruined this pure life that i was given or have i fallen into a trance then I feel i want to dance dance with the devil IL do if i take my life and dance with the devil all of the time but its god that i want and i know that he is there what am i doing what do i care
In my mind I'm lost and I'm torn I'm feeling so alone
What in this world have i got to share but a knife in one hand and mind that don't care
I'm depressed and I'm down and I'm suddenly hitting the ground oh no i think to myself I'm dieing now please someone help i see an angle Ive me a pretty one i can see with wings to big and bright shes says my dear you be alright she grabs my hand to such surprise i suddenly open my big brown eyes I'm on my bed with a bit of blood oh dear god i thank you so much for that second chance at life and the angel i saw was my one and only guardian angel