She couldnt completely understand what made her fall for him. Now that she had taken these small step to living the way she wanted to, she just had to choose which road to take. In between the months were she fell down she relized that she couldnt hold her world togather like she truly wanted to. She couldnt change what happend then, but she sure could choose what happens in her future.
So what, he moved on, and trust me she was doing her best to do the same. This time not out of spite, but for herself. She learned to love herself for once. She knew that was the thing to do. She lived for her mistakes and took then and learned. You just dont trust any one. You trust that special someone. Honestly, everything she thought she knew she didnt. The world she looked at before was no longer the same anymore. As if she was blind, and just saw daylight.
The lies, the secrets they all were uncovered. To her surprise her and others fears were revealed to her. She was shown that some one close to her was terified to be alone. She learned people were actully scared of losing her. That a guy, no the jerk wasnt all she had to live for. She had her life, and that she was so greatful for. Because not everyone had the family that she had. Not everyone knew the things she had learned, and would keep learning. Not everyone had that best friend that she now realized was there. She didnt know everything she needed was always under her nose. She just had to open her eyes.
