I dont wanna do this
I dont wanna hurt
I dont want to be thrown around
And treated like dirt
What did I do to make you like this
We all know its always me
Who makes you act this way
Why cant you just leave me be?
Why do you fake it front of them
Im scared to come home every night
I dont want to deal with this anymore
I dont wanna die in a fight tonight
I cry all alone with no one around
No one knows and no one cares
I hurt so much inside an out
It hurts knowing you arent there
You are incapable of loving me
Of being a father I could look up to
Im sick of fighting and getting hit
I really just dont know what to do
Sleepless nights, writing in my diary
Making all these quotes and songs
About your anger about your furry
Im dying inside and no one knows
Just how horrible my days are
I wanna run away and never come back
But im stuck here and I cant go far
He comes home every morning
And I cry when I see his car lights
And hear the door knob turning
Its nine o clock theres still time
Time to hurt me time to kill
Im so scared I start to shake
My head is pounding
My heart it aches
How does this make things better?
I do not know
I donâ??t know why I need a beating
I have so many bruises I can show
But no one believes me anymore
They think im a liar
But he just yells more
He curses and yells and calls me a crier
He makes he sick I want to puke
I donâ??t need 2 bleed or to bruise
I donâ??t like being a colorful artwork
Of shades of blacks and blues
I just wish one day you would go 2 far
And make me not wake up from the hit
Just one more time im almost there
One more time I will not make it
Mom, why dont u trust me
You know my words are true
You just dont wanna believe
All the shit im going through
I understand how you feel
Its very hurtful and tough
I donâ??t think I will ever heal
He screams so loud it hurts my ears
He shoves me up against the wall
I look at him in dismay
I slowing fade and start to bawl
I try to smile and not break down
I try to be strong and not show my tears
I am so angry I want to kill him
I am so scared with all these fears
I am helpless a lost soul
Lost forever, somewhere far away
Music saves her makes it better
Turns her skies to blue from grey
Im in my room alone and hiding
Its almost time for me to sleep
Just one more before im dreaming
All night long youâ??ll make me weep
Torture me and make me bend
Crack there goes another bone
Someone help me I am scared
Someone help me Im all alone
Im gonna die right here right now
I screamed and tried to fight back
I cant take anymore abuse
No more fights no more attacks
So I try to hide deep inside
And forget everything youve ever done
I still hate you but things wont change
Cuz Iâ??m fighting a battle that just cant be won
