Letting Go

My tears put me to sleep
Ashamed of the life I'm leading
Sobs are my sick lullaby
Yet my heart continues beating

I'd give anything to go back
And change the things I've done
My shadow is getting heavy
And there is nowhere else to run

I'm being tortured and chased
By the ghosts of my past
And I'm really not sure
How much longer I can last

I said that I'd manage
But I knew I was pretending
I said good-bye to my dreams
I wont get my happy ending

I'll call this my swan song
As I look back at my life so far
Even though I have nothing to hold
Letting go is still too hard