My Baby

In this dream, I'm with you
I'm always with you
before you i was nothing
i was lost,and alone,confused,hurt and scared,
closed, turned-off, to human feelings and touch
now my icy black heart
is melting
it's returning to normal
i can feel your touch
your heart beat with mine
i can see the love in your eyes
and hear it in your voice
the concern and care
you give me is tearing
away my walls
I'm so scared that I'll lose you
and I'll be alone again
but your gentle voice and touch helps me understand
you're not leaving
and if you do it's because
you have to, not really because
you want to
I'm beginning to understand that now
I love you
and i hope you know that,
through all my problems and disbeliefs,you can see that
and feel it
the way i feel it through you
you have opened up my heart and
unlocked all those chains
i put around it,to block the human touch,
and let yourself in
and i hope you never decide to
walk out and make me let you go
i know we have our problem
moments but i hope your
words will stay true
that we can make it through
anything

Zach, I love you!

Dedicated to:Zachary Paul Billman
you are my everything! you saved me! thank you!