As i site in this place all quiet and white.
I think to myself this must be what heaven is like.
Then i see it and i know its true hes surrounded by a white light outlined in blue.
As i follow him i look back, why did i do this was my head out of whack?
I feel all alone i always have.
Its been so long and i have been so gone, the drugs and all that.
So many times you have asked me what the hell is wrong with you and why do you do the things you do.
All i wanted to say is mom i love you but instead i always yelled go away i wish you were dead.
But when its all said and done the gun is to my head i pull the trigger life is so much bigger than my strength and will to live.
I wake up and realise its all a dream.
I tell myself im going to tell her because life is shorter than it seems.
