by Deanna Jul 13, 2006
category :
Love, romance /
lost love
Deep in my heart i believed we were meant for each other, not to someone else but to one another. All the precious moments we had were all a lie, trying to make yourself look good all you did was deny. Never considering my feelings you just left and walked away. It killed me inside but i didn't give up hope and thought you'd be back someday. Months passed by with still no sign of you, i went insane, so confused not knowing what to do. It turned out that all the love inside you wasn't meant for me, it belonged to someone else, a girl better than i could ever be. Hands clenched in my hair, collapsing on the ground, feeling so stupid realizing i got clowned. Eyes drowned in tears, swollen and red. Wasn't interested in explaining it to anyone, just berried myself in bed. Sitting in the dark, all alone, the door is locked, I'm on my own. Out the window, the rain pouring strong, i stayed up and watched it fall all night long. The rain reminded me of the endless tears i cried. But it didn't matter anymore so i continued to watch the world as life slowly passed me by. Spending nights down on my knees praying for god to come to me. To heal my pain, and guide me through, to see the light I've been reaching out to. How could i have made a mistake i was trying to avoid all along, yet once again i was blind, didn't want to admit i was wrong. If only there was a way to escape this dreadful nightmare, suffering with a heartache i can no longer bare. Why can't someone take my hand and help me to the end, i don't ask for much, nothing big, just in need of a true friend. |