And You Want Me To Call You My Brother.

You take my friends,
Then let them threaten me.
My heart continually mends,
While you live life free.

You continually abuse me,
But when I attack back,
You have a big hissy fit,
And I'm the one to get the smack.

Why must you get your way all the time?
You're not the only one with an illness you know!
I hurt myself to release the pain you cause me,
But you'll never know this, because to you this I'll never show.

I have dreams too,
Like to be happy one day without you.
I had a big dream once,
But you came along and crushed it in one pounce.

I wanted to be without you for one day at school,
But along you came to cause me hurt.
I tried to drag you away,
But Rhiannon said that if I touched you again she would bash me into the dirt.

Why didn't you go away before I got hurt?
Do you find pleasure in causing me pain?
Did you find the need in having my friend threaten me?
Why must you steal away the few things that keep me sane?

You've changed so much,
You scare me too.
Every time I look into your eyes,
I don't see anyone, not even you.

You try to kill yourself,
And if you got a chance, you'd kill our little brother too.
From you I try to protect myself,
But the one left unharmed is always you.

You've had so many "attacks" at school,
And I'm always the one to protect onlookers from harm.
But you don't remember it and call me a fool,
Then it's always me who has to keep calm.

How do you expect me to look at you the same?
Do you want me to love you like a brother again?
Well it's too late for sorries,
So I'll just add you to my list of worries.

I wanted to keep you as a brother,
But now you have gone too far.
The original you was like no other,
But you must know that my heart can only stretch so far.

After today I disown you as being related,
Tomorrow is another day hopefully without hatred.
After a day like today I'll never want another,
After a day like today you still want me to call you my brother.

~~this is true. the part with Rhiannon in it happened today. and Rhiannon is one of those people who would do it. i\'m so scared of her now. and i hate my brother so much. please comment.~~