Remember

I still remember the first time we met....
it was in class how could I ever forget...
remember our history project and our group...it was Brittany, Dev, u, and me..
it was so funny...he...he-he
remember every time I tried 2 talk u would always say...
" shhhhh "
then it became our thing..
then a month later I found out u liked me....cause u didn't know I knew gibberish but i did...and i came in handy...
and in that month...the second month of school we started going out...
I was so happy, I really had liked u then and now...
we went out for 4-5 months... from October to January
it was a long time... but then we grew apart it was so sad cause I really still loved u and I think I still do... and then u told me u hated me and never wanted 2 c me ever again... and once i read that email it broke my heart..
I did things I wish I didn't...
y r u so mad at me I'm not the 1 going around and telling people stuff that is not true...
well maybe it is but so Wat u didn't have 2 tell any1 I'm ashamed enough...
I felt so bad and didn't know what 2 do so I did something that helped me..well only a little
it hurt alot but what can u do when yr in love with some that don't give a f*u*c*k about u...
now all these scars on my arms I want to show u but its not like u would care anyway...
what to do, what to do.... do u care if I die???... would u come 2 my funeral??? would u care if I moved and u really wouldn't c me ever again??? would u care if I told u that I still love u???????