Falling into....

I let myself fall into your eyes
i let myself beleive all your lies
i never saw the pain
deep i cut into the veins
i see myself dive into shallow waters
i kissed your lips as if my feelings mattered
my nightmares wake me up in tears
the nightmares that i hate wake me up in fear
the memories of you haunt
this couldnt be what you want
reality kicks in along with the pain
here i stand in the rain
there u stand just outside
i search but i cannot find
im glad you are happy with him
but here i stand in sin
we had a plan that didnt fall through
through all of it i thought u were true
i breathe your laughter
even if it comes after
i cant fight the tears of you
thinking about everything we used to do
nothing happens as planned
remember what we dreamed of,and