With you around,
i cannot be myself.
I lost my vitality,
as well as my laughter.
I can only smile weakly,
and talk softly.
I can only drag my feet,
and walk like a zombie.
There's a lot i want to say,
but all words left my brain the moment you appear.
Some may say I'm weak,
to let you determine my mood.
But i myself think that,
some feelings cannot be controlled.
I feel like disappearing,
each time i see you.
You seem to taking away all my things,
yet i took none of yours.
I merely tried to have a part of what is yours.
I respected your feelings,
but did anyone spare a thought for me?
It is at times like this,
that i wonder why i am so nice..
There's a lot of things i do not allow myself to do,
and feeling this way is one of them.
Why can't you just have a little self control?
All i ask for you is that:
to notice me when i'm around.
I'm not invisible,
nor am i as tiny as dust particles.
To you, I may seem insignificant.
And maybe you are right!
Because of you,
i feel that my existance is nothing.
With or without me,
things will remain the same:
Time will still tick by,
you guys will still have fun.
This is not a competition,
even if it seems like one.
Even if it is,
I have long been defeated.
Lost, because time has never been on my side.
