A Dream From Yesterday

It sucks. OH WELL.

I walk in the door as my mom says hello.

I don\'t respond. I run to the bathroom and slam the door.

I run hot water as it muffles out my desperate cries for you.

.You\'re.Gone.

I\'m dead to you. Why can\'t I be dead to the world?

I take off my clothes as I look at myself in disgust.

.x.youLOVEDmeYESTERDAY.x.

I sit in the bathtub as the water scorches my body.

The pain feels good.

I pick up the bar of soap to find a razor blade underneath.

My precious love, will you be the only one i seek comfort in?

I push the blade onto my skin and drag it across with a smirk on my face.

Watching the blood trickle I chuckle laughs of insanity.

I drop the blade and it slowly finds it\'s way to the bottom of the water
Leaving a bloody past. Ruining what\'s left.

LIKE.ME.&&.YOU

I look at my wrist and notice what I\'ve done for you once more.

Another ugly scar to hide.

I start to cry as I glance down at my artwork.
You\'re artwork.

Ours.

I go underwater; ashamed of my tears.

Sitting. waiting for nothing.

I start to get dizzy as I think of you with her.

I\'m stuggling to come up but don\'t know how.

I\'m helplessly dying.

A knock on the door. But I can\'t understand what she\'s saying.

Rachel you\'re wasting water time for school get up.

.I.sit.up.

I gasp for air realizing I\'m in bed.

It was all a dream from yesterday.