What Now?

Unable to drift away
Rest is not an option
A forced smile paints my face
As I get ready for the day

Lethargic is my mood
My body so dead beat
As thoughts of you
Knock me off my feet

And what is this?
Confusion like nothing before
Thought that I'd carry on
But instead life's become a bore

And I'm sitting in my bedroom
Writing away my torment
As a sigh of relief
Suddenly comes out of me

Life is nothing more than a game
Hate, love, faith, it's all the same
I'm torn from head to toe
I'm so glad you'll never read, what I'm writing

Because I'd tremble
If I showed any weakness to you
If you saw me here in this pathetic state
I'm sure that you would tear me down, to the ground

So I must keep my eye
On the passing time
Hoping that these feelings
Will pass me by

No luck yet, but I'm optimistic
I'm planted on the ground
Relationships, they don't mean shit
My head's no longer in the clouds

I've seen the end, watched my reflection die
I've slowly wasted away
Now it's time to mend these shards inside
Might as well start today

And I'm wiser, so much better
Now I'm not a fool anymore
Ignorance no longer blinding me
It was blissful, but it was bullshit

So this is my song, to finally end it
Maybe next time, I should watch back
And don't wear my trust on my sleeve
Infantile mind was so naive

Never again, will my heart be open
Thanks to you
My dying day, appears to be today
As my anger falls right through

So gve me back my keys, and shut the door
I no longer belong to you
I've escaped out of this prison cell
And left you in the cold

What now?