Can't stop crying

I tried today not to cry
But it it didn't go as i planned.

everywhere i turn you are there.
from music on the radio , your card , the twists tie wedding ring , to the visions of you burned into my mind and heart.

I really wish something would kill me , it has to feel better than how i do at this moment.

why the hell won't these hot tears stop?! I have been crying since Wednesday and they have not let up.

i have no piece of mind . all your rationale for not being with me makes no sense.

you say you still love me, you said last night, "do you trust me?" I said of course i do ", you then said you have to do this.I just don't get it.you have made your reasons in your mind and not your heart.

baby i am so in love with you, every poem here except one is for you.
I can make a whole novel just for you and tell the world how wonderful you really are.

i don't want to hear "time heals" ,i want to hear you say"one more"!

but i know deep down i can't pressure you, i may never see you again.

i saw your look last night , this was not you ,you know you always let me see deep in you , i saw that this was against what you really wanted to do.

my last act of my never ending true love for you was to set you free and i did , remember "in my world" you were always free.

I love you . please bring your love back to me so i can stop crying.