No matter how hard I tried I didn't fit,
They joked and pretended
All the while leading me on
Making me believe I did.
And when I finally believed it,
They tore me down.
Laughed at me,
Made fun of me.
You don't know how I feel,
How could you when all you're life they loved you.
Never once were you made fun of,
Never once did you stand up for someone who was.
I thought I knew how to take care of it,
How to get out of that situation.
How to take away the pain.
Sitting alone in my room I would cut.
Never feeling a thing,
Taking my anger out on me.
I would go to school covered from head to toe,
So no one would know...
Know what they did hurt so much,
So they wouldn't see my way out of it.
You used to stare at me,
Giving me odd and questioning looks.
As if asking why I always kept my head down?
Why I always avoided eye contact?
But the real question is did you really care?
Maybe you just wanted me to think you cared.
Maybe you were just like everyone else.
I won't let it happen again,
You won't make me think you want to be friends.
It happened once, and I am not naive enough to fall for it again.
Deep inside I am screaming,
On the surface I am bleeding.
I need a solution out of this situation,
Dying is what comes to mind
To take away this pain.
