Crying In My Sleep

Tears soak into my pillow
yet my heart continues to beat
This secret is whats killing me
These words I dare not speak.

My heard aches each night
I have always been alone
I found comfort in few friends
who have gone out on their own.

Without them I am nothing
Its pointless; Why am I here?
So many unasked questions still...
Nothing, anymore is clear.

They all have someone to love
hold them close; whisper words of grace
While Im in this secluded cell
rotting in this place

I was numb once before;
Drugs and alcohol, I needed nothing more.

Yet you brought me into this life, and Im alive again.
This isnt like you said it was, why is there so much pain?

I will only ask you one question..
Because He is all I can think of....
Im sad because I\'ll never find out
Is this Really Love?...

Crying myself to sleep...

: ...Tears soak into my pillow :

Isnt how Im supposed to be...

: ...yet my heart continues to beat :

How did I change so fast....

: ...This secret is whats killing me :

Please tell me these thoughts won\'t last...

: ...These words I dare not speak. :

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