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This was written on the basis of me and my girlfriend, tells the story of what happened so far, pretty much my diary of emotions
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As you walked by i would gaze
from the corner of my eye
Gaze at your beauty and grace
as mysterious as the night sky
But i couldn't say anything
not to you, not even hello
I wished there was something
to say that would show
How much i admired you
for your glamor and style
the elegance you drew
in your eyes and your smile
your picturesque body
and harmonious curves
harbored by your body
like a rose preserved
your delicate skin
and your decorative smile
i wanted to say something
but my words would just hide
Then finally came the time
that i got my chance
and i stopped with the mime
to try to romance
i opened my lips
and out came the words
my heart didn't skip
it just sang with the birds
you just kept laughing
at everything i said
so i carried on talking
and it still went unsaid
i saw you again
the very next day
it was pouring with rain
and the sky was Grey
i cracked a few jokes
then spoke to you
words kept with their hoax
but you looked straight through
i wanted to say
how much i like you
but again on that day
the words were like glue
they were sat on my lips
i had no bottle to tell
concealed on the tips
like a snail in its shell
it happened again
the very next day
like an iron chain
preventing What i say
then we went for a wander
and looked at the stars
my mind did ponder
but still the words were too far
yet we shared a kiss
your soft lips met mine
that soft gentle bliss
on What my thoughts did pine
i thank you for it
just for that one moment
your soft sweet lips
and to me what it meant
my mind is still racing
in its usual way
my heart is chasing
that kiss on that day
we've shared many more
and yet all are as sweet
but i want more and more
as my heart beats
i want you to be mine
all of who you are
until that time
my heart bears a scar
Since that day
we have shared times together
times that brought memories
that will last forever
These times that we shared
left me awake
until that one time
i made a mistake
i never meant it
the way it was read
but ill live with that
until the day I'm dead
thinking of why it happened
and different ways
but i made that mess up
and now my heart pays
most i can ask for
is us to be friends
i cannot find ways
to make amends
I left you alone
for a while
Trying to hide my sorrow
and force out a smile
I wasn't myself
And people saw through
I came to realize
That I'm in love with you
I would sit and i would stare
at nothing at all
But think of you constantly
even things so small
I felt incomplete
And just wanted to hear
hear your voice
your laugh or cheer
I saw your face
everywhere i would go
it was driving me nuts
and it started to show
Many people would ask me
if i was alright
But i would push them away
and continue my fight
I fought against my feelings
i tried to deny
what i felt for you
i tried to lie
I spent many a time
In my favorite place
By the river Taff
remembering your face
i would block my feelings
and sit and wallow
but all the time
it just made me more hollow
I decided to call
and tell you this
but i couldn't get it right
so to compensate for it
i wrote you a letter
explaining my thoughts
apologizing for what happened
that misunderstanding of sorts
i wanted completeness
i wanted you back
Food wasn't tasting
Colors turning black
but i just wanted
for you to be content
even if my senses
and feelings were spent
But i told someone something
that they weren't meant to say
I wanted to tell you
myself, my own way
but she couldn't help herself
and told you what i said
the fact that i love you
and couldn't get you off my head
so next time we talked
was when i phoned you
you asked me if it was right
but i think you knew
we spent time more together
just out as friends
gave us some time
to make amends
you told me that you wanted
to try again
and told me you had feelings
whether they be the same
or completely different
to what i feel for you
i love you thats simple
i love you thats true
I am glad for the fact
You gave it a go
You may grow to love me
You may let it show
