Why

I thought i was truly better
all the bad has gone away
but still these tears run down my face
and it seems they're here to stay
i wipe my eyes and try to sleep
only more tears come and i continue to weep
i dont know why I'm going through this
everything has been going
so good for me
Ive been doing great
things have been exactly
how they should be
why am i like this?
what did i do?
God, I'm truly sorry
if its because i doubted you
i cant stand this pain
please tell me, why?
why am i like this?
why do i continue to cry?
why do i feel these things
that make me want to say goodbye?
what have i done so bad
to deserve a punishment like this?
i dont want to leave this place
theres too many people id miss
make this pain end
make these thoughts die
God, i need and explanation.
Please tell me, WHY?