Thinking,dreamin,remembering....

I'm sitting here..
thinking..
thinking and dreaming..
remembering all the good things..
as i shut my eyes..
i dream that you are still beside me!
instead of us both being alone!
or am i only alone??

thinking,remembering..
there we were laying in my bed, laughing,holding each other while drifting too sleep..
I'm feeling strange..
i cant say what it is!
I'm really numb from upset, loneliness and being let down..
i wish its just a nasty dream I'm gonna wake up from soon!

then maybe you would be beside me again..
you changed my life from the start with just one smile..
you took my heart with just one kiss!
i close my eyes to just remember how it was with you beside me!

thinking about everything we did!
mainly the silly things..
when you would sit behind me on my bed while picking a film out!
they way you would always lean on me!
how you always pinned me down.. with a smile on your face coz you won..

dreaming and thinking..
thinking and wishing..
tish was just a dream that you weren't leaving!
i wish that you would knock at my door..
or do i really not need that??

as there is something about you!
how i can lose myself in you..
all i keep seeing is how you would
grab me and just try and kiss me..
but then all i see is me pulling away with tears in my eyes..

dreaming and remembering the good things!
that over power the bad things..
remembering the time you sang softly in my ear one night till we both fell asleep..
now i hear that song i feel low..
sometimes i feel I'm only one hurting!

wishing its all a dream!
a dream where I'm gonna wake up soon and when i do ill see your face beside me!

thinking, dreaming, remembering and wishing..
all these things coz i started to love you..
but once Ive woken up from my wishful dream reality with hit me..
to how your not here no more and you never will be again..

IF ONLY THIS WAS A NASTY DREAM AND I WAS WAKING UP TO YOU FROM IT.. KNOWING YOUR ARMS WOULD HOLD ME TIGHT AND MAKE IT ALL ALRIGHT... - DON'T WALK AWAY FORM SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT BECAUSE IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE IF YOU TURN BACK..