Mixed emotions

( This is my alphabet poem..abcd..so on and so on. it's the first one i have ever done, so be honest.)

As long as I have known you I have loved you
Back to the day we started out friends.
Could you picture us ending up like this
Do you remember all the chances we had that we missed
Every night I think of us how we should be
Forever you will be with me until my heart is put to rest
Growing old together is what we want
However, Sometimes things turn into a rut
I will always be here to guide you through this life
Just keep me in mind when you want to die
Kissing you is what fills my heart
Loving you is what keeps me alive
Maybe, one day we will be something more
Never forgetting that you are who I simply adore
Of course, My heart is your's and will always be
Put it in the ground and bury it deep
Questions, I ask my self every day
Realizing I'm answering them all by myself
Stop and look at me, do you see my tears
They are only there to hide my fears
Unfortunately I can't hide them from you
Very seldom do I cry in front of you
We will be together forever, even through the drugs
Xanax and alcohol will not keep us down
You are mine, and will forever be
Zealous moments wont bring us down.