I really messed up

What can I say for myself.
I really messed up this time
I wish there was a very tall tree
That I could climb

Take some rope
To the very top
Tie it real tight
And jump right off

Every time this happens
It's always my fault
I'm taking my feelings
Into the vault

To be locked inside
For years to come
No one will get them
But anger, they will get some

The one person in the world
That I could call mine
I yelled at
And had to wine

I was mad
And took it out on you
And now I'm just depressed
Always looking blue.

I'll be stuck like this forever
Because you have left me for good
I wish someone would beat me
With a big piece of wood

Beat me until
All the breath is out
Then there would be nothing
To raise my voice and shout

To be out of this world
Where everyone is sick of me
Would be the best idea yet
I'm in the way you see

I think I'll just die
And save them all the trouble
All I wanted to do
Was to stay in my bubble

But I chose to talk
To some of my friends
But I've learned that's
How the best thing ends

Someone lied on me
As well as lied on you
And at this point
I don't know what to do.

You say you just want friends
And nothing lasts for ever
Well my love for you will never fade
And I will forget you never.

written 04/2006