Letting Go

I still wake up at night and cry out for you, hoping maybe you're outside my door or just down the hall. I need you to come and hold me close. I need you to kiss away the tears and reassure me that I have no need to fear...

But when I wake up with the tears falling down, it's because you're not here. I scream out your name and beg for forgiveness but you're too far gone for me to get you back...My heart is broken and it's my fault you won't come back...

I thought we would be happily ever after, but fairy tales aren't real and my heart is just too shattered to heal. I see you now and again and you smile at me and ask me how I've been...I can barely look at you as I lie and say fine...you know I am lying but you just walk away before the tears begin...

You promised to love me forever...how could you just change your mind overnight? How could I just let you leave me...why can't I just have you back! When will I run out of tears to cry and when will this pain just die!

It'll all end tonight, as I take my only friend out and lay him against my wrist...I slowly pull him down and there it is, the one thing that holds me here seeping on the floor...it's coming out faster and I'm getting dizzy...before I fall to the floor I must say thank you for letting me leave this cruel world...