Disguised life

And I'm stuck here wondering
if this is how its meant to be
my life so perfect for everyone to see
but no one knows what i hide
buried deep inside
the real me
the depressed girl who no longer feels
anything in her life but pain
allot of stuff she still cant even explain
how her heart breaks every time
how it hurts to even smile
how she bleeds every night
nothings ever gonna be right
she feels lost in every bit of her life
she's stop the fight and giving up the strife
left to die,with nobody by her side
no one there to care for her
but nobody was ever there
all swept away in there lies
of a perfect life where were all okay
so tears will fall from my eyes
as i cry one last time
and wake up tomorrow to the same old place
everything perfect even the smile
i fake on my face.