Lame excuse

I did something
and it was so wrong
and it was so mean
but all i have
is a lame excuse.
I didn't want to be with him
it was just one date
to help me back
to cheer me up
from a big mistake.
Its not my fault
that he fell so hard,
and its not my fault
that i didn't fall too.
how could i be so stupid!
and mess with your heart like that
i played mind games with you
and i don't know how to end.
this has happened to me too
another guy, sweet like you
i gave it my all
gave him full control.
but he broke my heart
and now ill do it to you.
i know i cant blame that other guy
but i don't know what else to do
i try everyday
to say i love you
but each day it gets harder
and i shed a tear of truth.
you are my second mistake
i did this to anther guy too
i lead him on
then broke his heart.
i didn't know that i loved him so much
but everyday i cry for him too
i yearn for him
and i don't want to yearn for you too.
i know, i know.
its a lame excuse.
what i did was wrong
and i don't know how to stop.
its my own sick and twisted game.
maybe one day ill discover the truth,
but for now all i have is this lame excuse.