Feelings aren't real

The more i try to convince myself
the more pain i feel
he isn't who i want to be with
it doesn't even feel real

i like him theres no doubt
but i don't think we belong
i don't think he is for me
cant see it lasting to long

but lying to myself is OK
its a small price to pay
at least i don't feel lonely
each and every day

ill see how long this lasts
before it eats away at my soul
consumes me and controls me
before it takes its toll

ill let him use my body
take advantage all i can be
but he'll never lose me
because he never had me