Tired

Caught between,
the past and future me,
needing to relive to heal,
but not wanting to see,

To move on to the future,
I need to remember and tell,
of all the pain you caused me,
but that would be hell,

Though I block memories,
I can't stop them at night,
I find myself getting weaker,
life becomes a fight,

I find myself wishing,
That I had never lived,
Because my life ended,
After all you did,

I can't help wanting revenge,
then you can hurt too,
then maybe I won't feel pain,
I can start life brand new!

You should be locked in prison,
Never to be freed,
You'll forgive me won't you,
If my heart for you doesn't bleed,

But there's never justice,
You continue with your life,
while I lie here torn and ripped,
open by my knife.