Memory

For a long time I was ignorant
I felt like casting a blind eye
I wanted to hide away from it
Things that would force me to cry

But when everything I had lived for
Crashed upon my private beach
Everything which I had convinced myself
Was just another faulty speech

I let things slip like a stupid fool
Told you what others thought true
And then before I even knew it
I had hit a nerve in all of you

I didn't expect to see the tears
But when I did, I felt impulse fly
I held you even though you didn't ask
Instead of thinking I should just die

For a long time I wanted to cry with you
I wanted to show you my pain
But if you are anything at all like me
Causing agony to others is insane

I didn't let you run away for once
I acted on impulse, your teach
I held on as tight as I possibly could
So you could stay within reach

But now the memory haunts me
It's convinced me that yes you are normal
But you hide it behind this heart of stone
Instead of acting the usual formal

The tears of the innocent shed for one
Something You wish could erase
I don't even know what to guess anymore
Wish you could just go at my pace

You taught me everything I know now
But yet I still turn to my ways
I still think you need me, that you're attached
I still live in this ugly haze.