Secret Emotions

As I put this pen to paper,
I want to make my emotions clear.
These are my feelings,
That I cannot reveal to you.

It's one in the morning,
And I just can't sleep.
The thoughts of you,
Are keeping me awake.

There's all these things,
That I would like to tell you.
But me, doing that,
Would ruin any chance,
That I could possibly have.

I've liked you for two years.
And since my freshman year,
I wished you were mine.

At the band banquet,
We danced to a song.
It meant nothing to you,
But the world to me.

I have no idea,
What song it was.
Because I was so into you,
I didn't even pay attention,
To the music playing.

I found out last week,
That you had told Jessie,
About that whole night.
Said that you were trying,
To dance with as many freshman,
As you possibly could.
Out of all those girls,
You mentioned just one name.
That name belonged to me.
Did that mean anything?

Then my sophomore year came.
You're pushing me down the hall.
And I push you back.
I really liked that a lot.

Then you're dating Jessie.
I'm crushed, but don't show it.
No one knew I liked you.
I was jealous every time you held her.
I wish that was me instead of her.
But that'll never happen to me.

I guess I can't complain.
You still talked to me.
And continued to push me.
Even down the whole hall.

She told us to stop,
Trying to kill each other.
But we never did.
We continued as normal.

Then you guys broke up,
During the Florida trip.
Nichole stole you heart.
Took it away from Jessie.

Before school let out,
For the very first time,
I was your arms around her.
Jessie was crushed.
And of course I was,
But I still couldn't show it.

School is now over.
I get to see you at practice.
And sometimes at your work.

But I guess I can't complain.
Because Nichole graduated.
And even thought you're still together.
I don't have to see it.
And I guess that's better,
Than nothing at all.