I Wouldn't call it an addiction... I would call it a modification to the shit Ive been through. i know its OK because my pain of reluctant goes away. It makes my life 10 percent better when this event occurs. To me I've cured myself for the moment.. i do this for a matter of relaxation and a little bit of revenge..I've made all the agonizing go away. What could be better?
I hate all these 'talks' i get... am i that substandard? It brings me to my lowest point... all of these talks about my 'fck ups'... seriously, its not that big of a deal...
But yet he tells me not to question him on his screw ups, as i call it.. he says he shouldn't have to give an answer.. its the way it is... so i guess i have to deal with my grieve...
he says i isolate myself from others pffft SYKE, maybe because he doesn't give me the time of day...
