Attention

(true story, part of it tells how today went)

What do I have to do for you to notice me
Why is it I can die and you would probably not even care
This is not the way my life, our relationship is supposed to be
Your love is something I can not bare

When you first found out I cut you cried
When you first found out I was bulimic you cried
When you found out I was an alcoholic you cried
But when you found out i overdosed all you did was sigh

You screamed at me and said You were going to get fired
That is all you cared about was your stupid job
You didn't care about what I had just tried
You didn't care that my head had a throb

I don't want you to try and stop me from doing what I do
But, I would like it if you would acknowledge it just a little bit
You are my mother and I truly love you
But, would you care if my wrist is what i slit

I told you today I was sick and i didn't feel good
You called the doctor once and didn't give it another thought
You said I did it to myself and there is nothing you can do
All that did was cause us to fight and fight

You saw my leg, you saw the cuts
You said "You're still doing it?" and then walked off
You saw my pain and my tears
But yet you left me there with my fears

You came home today and yelled at me for my eating problem
You said " You did this to yourself, I'm done trying to help"
You looked at me and just glared
I can see now, I will have to rebel

I will do what I have to so I can get your attention
I will do what I can for you to listen
Until you acknowledge and see my pain
I will forever do these things so I can keep sane