I Never...

by Thoughtless Consideration   Jul 24, 2006


My fingers tremble
My face is pale.

I stare at you unblinkingly.
I can't believe this.

What happened?
Why did it happen?

I know it's my fault.
It's all my fault.

I didn't try hard enough.
I never try hard enough.

Silently, I beg you to stop.
You don't notice me.

I remember you years ago.
I remember the smile I haven't seen for so long.

Memories are killing me.
I want to vomit, but I just cry.

This is my fault.
I should have tried harder.

I never try hard enough.
I never knew.

I never knew what was happening.
I never knew what you thought.

And now I know.
Now I know.

I whisper softly,
"What's wrong?"

What's wrong.
That's all I can think.

I'm so stupid.
I'm such an idiot.

"Nothing," you say in a rush.
You get in your car.

I'm scared.
Terrified.

Maybe because it's the first time
I've seen you crying in my life.

I stumble to the front door and watch you.
The car slides carelessly into the road and soars off.

Will I see you again?
I wouldn't know.

Do you know what I think?
Of course not.

I never even told you that.
I never did anything.

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  • 18 years ago

    by .x.bєαuтιfulє lιє.x.

    I really like this poem, it mean its written in a really unique way..

  • 18 years ago

    by Thoughtless Consideration

    Chloe...
    i AM scared to say it. i can't
    help it.
    and... it was kind of my fault.
    i never did ttry hard enough. and just the
    idea that i was scared to tell him...
    that shows how crappy a friend i am.
    i never did say it... and that shows
    how obvious it is that i never tried.
    but i'm getting over it, and i'm moving on.
    thanks so much though. your the best friend ever and i'm so lucky that i have u here for me.

  • 18 years ago

    by Pondering Thoughts Of Nothing

    It wasnt your fault, you did do something.
    yyou cared.
    and dont be afraid to let him know it,
    you may be scared to say it,
    but trust me,
    it will make him feel good and special, and that he is important to someone.

  • 18 years ago

    by Pain Remains

    I like it. When something happens beyond your control, you have to have someone to blame, even if its yourself, its what i do anyway. Poetry comes from the heart, and this certaintly did yours. Who cares what other people think, this is your poem, your heart and soul, be proud and keep up the poetry.
    Jade x

  • 18 years ago

    by Thoughtless Consideration

    Ok, maybe this isn't that great a poem... but this wasn't meant for anybody else but me. so its possible that nobody else but me will understand it... so dont judge.

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