Winning Yet Losing

by Thoughtless Consideration   Jul 25, 2006


I'm hiding behind
These distant brown eyes.
I'm lost behind
A strand of dark hair.
I'm shuddering
Behind your icy glare.

I'm stumbling along
This forest path,
Trying vainly to escape
The cruel aftermath.
Memories are fresh in my mind.
Memories are making me blind.

I block out the thoughts
But they break down
The weak
Mental wall.
I cower behind trembling fingers.
I try not to hear my terrified whisper.

And the sun is so bright,
All smiley and light.
The heat tapdances across my skin
As I force myself
To continue-
Just this once, I must win.

I push aside my fear,
I think about making a feat.
I breath deeply,
I start to relax
As I taste the
Familiar taste
Of bittersweet defeat.

And in the world,
It seems like there is nothing
Else,
When I play
This mental game
I have named:
Me vs Myself.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Danni

    Idk what it is but i've been reading quite a few of your poems and if those are any thing about you then we have alot in common i really liked this one and thanks for the comment it means alot to me
    ~Danni~

  • 18 years ago

    by Bri

    Wow, love this one. It's really deep and I can relate to it really well. Good job:)

    -Bri

  • 18 years ago

    by Thoughtless Consideration

    Everybody, thank you SO much for such supportive comments. it honestly means the world to me. my poetry is always extremely personal, and someimtes people don't understand it, and think it's a bad poem. i write my poetry for myself. but thank you all SO much. this is one of those poems that you honestly pour your heart into when u write it, and thank ssoo much for the supportive comments. i can't even begin to tell you how much it means. and chloe, you are totally the best friend in the world. i lylas and thanks for all the amazing comments.

  • 18 years ago

    by Pondering Thoughts Of Nothing

    I loved it. you can see the pain and the scared feelings u were feeling when u wrote this... very good

  • 18 years ago

    by ajda

    Wow nice poem....love the ending....i thought the whole till the end that it was a sport or something you so badly wanted to win but in the end its all about you and it makes complete since great poem :)

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