I start to realize my fate
It's been a while since I thought about it
I look at the calender and notice how close it is to that date
The memory of it starts to fade through the years
I try to hold on to it as a learning experience
but the thing i remember most are all the tears
I remember the reaction the emotions the phone call
but why can't I remember what truly matters most
and when telling someone how can people so easily stall
I didn't want to leave you there in that state
but i swear to god it wasn't my fault
I wanted to be there to hear the slowing heart rate
I'm upset that it ended bitterly
I wish that there could've been a better ending
I didn't think she meant it so literally
I wanted it all to be for the better
I didn't want to end with nothing
but instead a reply with your brain washed letter
I hope that one day you'll realize it was a lie
maybe I'll be the one to tell you the truth
but what I'm trying to say is good-bye
