Atempted Suicide

Trying to make you smile
Even though I know you don't care
I can't do a thing about your state of mind
No, not unless she's there

You ignore even my complex thoughts
To busy pondering hers
And I know we can't control our feelings
I sometimes wish I could change yours

The only one that makes you happy
Is the one who makes you feel sad
I guess I was forgotten in this mix
Should I really feel this bad?

Becoming way to close
Only to be rejected
You're so perfect and beautiful in my eyes
How can you feel so defected?

If only my words meant more to you
If only you could see
You're what keeps me living
You mean the world to me

But my words are nothing but jokes to you
And you can't control those thoughts
Why did I think you would listen
Did you think you wouldn't get caught?