Creating the inner me

Fighting to find anything anywhere
A heart of emotion, do you see the padlock
Maybe I am viewed like this for a reason
If you knew you would find it as a shock

Do not attempt to demolish my brick barrier
You will fail theirs far too much depth inside
Oh! Weak defenceless me
24/7 too much I have lied

Applying the many layers of to my face
Making sure im not exposed
You think you know the real me
Sorry that was long ago disposed

Picturing myself as someone else
Some stranger I want to be
Creating her up in my mind
A confident flawless beauty