As you open the door, i stand frozen for what seems only a moment, but a life time to me. I know you wanted to see me, and no feeling came when i thought about seeing you.
The top part of you was bare less, and that was all my mind could grasp, i couldn't even look into your eyes, i was like deer caught in the ray of headlights i couldn't make myself look away.
I know that i don't like you any more, and that is a huge relief, but for some reason it was nice to see you. I don't think that you care for me anymore and that is a good thing more or less...it was good while it was there and now it is in the past where it belongs.
I wont wrap my arms around you any more, and you wont kiss these soft lips of mine. I wont hear the words "i love you" escape your lips when speaking of me, and you wont hear the words "i cant believe you" escape mine.
A wise women once told me if you let him go and he comes back then its meant to be, well i let go of you more times than i can count and you came back but i realize now what i hadn't then; that we weren't ever meant to be, we wanted something that just wasn't there.
We programmed our minds to believe, we were in love, but in a sick way we were infatuated by each other. The way i made you feel and the way you made me feel, but then only one thing it seemed you wanted and that was the part of myself i couldn't give away.
(i know this isnt very good but if you would comment that would be very much appreciated)
