God Forbid...

All the things you say, rip my heart to shreds. You say you love me, and it's only for the best, you must come down hard on me god forbid if I am a little weak. No tears in those eyes, only babies are allowed to cry. Stiffen up that lip or it's going to be another smack...

You want to cry, I'll make you cry. Now I am on the floor, face down, blood all around, over a few tears! I wonder if I can do anything right in your eyes? I guess not because here you come, what is it this time? A bat or you going to go easy and use those fists!

You kick me in the ribs and scream things! Why can't you be better! Why can't you be good! Why do you have to be a little baby! I taught you better than this! Get up now and stop those tears! Clean up this mess or else I'll show you real fear!

I crawl away crying, hoping you don't hear my sobs, grab a cloth and clean up my blood loss. You just watch me from afar judging me with your eyes, screaming not to miss a spot. What did I do to deserve this life? Wasn't I meant for more than this?

I don't move fast enough and you grab a knife. Put it to my throat and tell me to hurry it up. I slip and feel it bite into my neck. I feel the blood run down and watch it hit the floor...you dig it into my throat deeper and the blood is everywhere. I try to stop the bleeding but it's too late...my heart has finally stopped and my hell is over...god forbid I live any longer......