Thoughts In My Head

These thoughts in my mind have me suffocating
Notions of actually waiting; almost anticipating
A return, when will I ever learn
I have to tell my heart no and be stern

That I can't follow my intuition
I said no but my heart wouldn't listen
It's the reason I'm in this position
I was so sure, and then having to detour

Erase and redo all the things I'm not use to
Lost and baffled on just how to tackle
Going on without you
My body free but my heart shackled

These questions in my mind
Have me in a constricting bind
Entwined with how's and why's
It was rocky with lows and highs

Kinda like a roller coaster ride
With you never by my side
I was alone then and alone now
These thoughts of you I just won't allow

Inside it's a constant confliction
Every thought has a contradiction
Confused on which is the right to choose
Should I stay or should I go?