If Only...

If only I could stop being who I am,

I can't change that easily even tho u think I can...

If only I could stop loosing what I had,

I'm getting tired of making ppl mad.

If only my attitude was a little better,

Then maybe u wouldn't have chosen her.

If only I could figure out what else to write down,

My thoughts right now r just so jumbled and spread around.