Confusion

I\'m smiling and I\'m laughing,
But is it truelly mine?
I want to lose this fakeness,
And leave it all behind.

But what am I without my smile?
An empty broken face?
A face so cold so listless,
A face without a place.

So maybe I\'ll keep this smile,
As a beatiful sweet little lie,
And cover all my confusion,
And refuse to ever cry.

I\'m crying out that I\'m a fake,
And hoping that they will see,
The girl behind the smile,
A slightly different me.

But will they like who I am?
The girl who isn\'t fun,
But I can\'t just show them,
Theres too many lies I\'ve spun.

Is life life all just a game?
Something we\'re meant to play?
Or are we supossed to lie,
Until our final day?

I cannot complain about liars,
When thats all I do,
All my life is fake,
And not a single smile is true.

I hope that you can see,
This smile was never mine,
And all these words are fake,
Just like saying \"I\'m fine\"