I want

I want to call you,
but your number i cant dial.
I don't want to cry,
But i know i cant smile.
I want to feel your touch,
But i know its not aloud.
All i can do is be silent,
I cant be loud.
I want to have one last kiss
but i know i would want more.
I should hate you.
But your the one i adore.
How can just one thing
change my days?
How cant i love you?
If i love you always!