Theses are two completely different girls
Both of them want the same thing
For all around them to be happy
But what people around them don�?�¢??t realize is that
Those two girls
Completely different as they are
Harbor in one person
They are always fighting one another
By day she is happy
She smiles and laughs
Yet by the end of the day
She goes home and she�?�¢??s crying
She has so much on her mind
And she only wants someone to love her
She turns to her music
To help her escape
She plays the notes
She tongues the rhythms
She fingers the keys
She plays the song
Clear and concise
She plays it from her heart
She plays it to the heavens
It�?�¢??s the only escape she has
She turns to no one
Instead
She turns to her music
It�?�¢??s always there
Waiting to be created
Waiting to be played
Waiting to be caressed and held
She does it all
She plays it from her heart
She does it right
And she feels it�?�¢??s the only thing she does right
She may cry
She may smile
But no matter what
Whether it�?�¢??s raining
Or sunny
Snowing
Or the leaves are falling
She can always play the music
It�?�¢??s always there
She smiles
Yet she cries
She laughs
Yet she�?�¢??s in pain
She shows only her feigned happiness
To make and keep others
The ones she loves and holds fast to
Happy and content
Yet when they are happy
She believes she can be happy too
She feels guilty being happy when they are not
She feels she doesn�?�¢??t deserve the happiness
The pain
The tears
The smiles
The laughs
They clash one another
Yet they are content
Feigned by day
True pain and tears by night
This is who she is
This is how she feels
She has never felt any other way
For happiness has been gone from her
For oh so long.
She can�?�¢??t even remember the last time she was happy
She longs to be happy
And for all around her to be happy
She cares about them first
And foremost
Before anything
She would do anything for her family
For they are all that keep her going
Not the hope for another day
A brighter future
Or anything
But her family
She loves them dearly
And they are always there for her to talk to
The few she opens up to
She looks up to
She wishes they were her family
But unfortunately they are not
But they feel like family
And for that she treats them as such
Some of them she turns to in time of need
In the few times that she breaks down
And cannot hold up herself
As she usually does
The few times this happens
She turns to the people she trusts and loves most
Her friends
Her family
Her life
For them she plays
For them she creates the music
For them she lives
All of it for them
They can laugh at her
They can swear at her
They can call her names
And she will still love them as family
This girl
One of pain and agony
Yet smiles and laughs
Desires only the happiness of everyone
She wants someone to lean on
