To dad...Im still thinking of you

There are so many things I never had the chance to say,
So many times I've gone over that day,
One day you were here, the next you were gone,
I'm just sorry for all I ever did wrong,

I'm sorry that I wasn\'t stronger,
That I couldn\'t be there for longer,
I'm sorry when you needed me I ran away,
Not realising that it was your last day,

I'm sorry your not here to see me now,
To see what I\'ve become and how,
I just wish that you were still here,
To comfort me and ease my fear,

It hurts knowing how you would've smiled
When you held your first grandchild,
And of all the things that you'll miss,
As I sit here and reminisce,

But I hope if you were to see all I do
I wouldn't be a disappointment to you,
I want you to be proud of me,
Even if you are not here to see.