Its funny now when i think about it
i left my life, friends,
everything i knew
i live here now in another place
it feels like i have a new life
i wanna go back
i miss the way things were
i feel so alone here
i have no one
my friends have their own lives
so there is no time for me
my family even has no time for me
i feel i shouldnt have left
i know i shouldnt have left
the hardest part now is realizing it
i know now that i left the 1 person
the 1 person who canre always make me smile or laugh
no matter what mood i i'm in
i thoght i would never find that again when i lost jake but then i found him again
and this time i left him
i dont know whats going to happen now i cant loose him
i would die
im bettering myself for him here
and i know i need to be here now
for him
i know here i can become exactly what he wants
what he needs
i love him more than i think i have ever loved anyone
i cant picture my life without him in it he is my best friend
no one has ever been there for me like he has
i\'ve gone through so much since i met him and never once did he leave me
his family has become mine
and my family has become his
it doesnt seem that long that we have been in each others lives
but i know now that i would not exsist if it were not for him
i know i would not be here now
there have been many times now that i have just wanted to lay down and let myself die
but he hasnt let me
i think he loves me too
i dont really know
i cant always tell
but its the subtle things the times he\'s come runing
the things he will say
they dont seem to be fake
they dont feel like an act
esspecially when he holds me
when he holds me i know its not lies
i know he cares and loves me too
i think he is afraid
as i am too
i know i love him and i want to be with him
but i also dont want to ruin what we have i have never had a friend like him before
not a sole on this earth i dont think knows as much about me as him now,
there once was someone that knew me that well
they were a good friend too but now they are gone and he is all i have left
